This is a little embarrassing to admit… but I think I’m not the only one who’s felt this way, and it might sound familiar to you too.

I always logically understood that I was the creator of my own reality—that I could shape the world I moved through. I could teach it, write about it, even feel inspired by it. And yet… the results were inconsistent. Some things manifested effortlessly, while others seemed stuck in deep pockets of confusion, hesitation, or doubt. Some succeeded, some failed, some never quite found their way into form.

I kept asking myself: Why? What is the difference between a manifestation that flows and one that falters? Where is the misalignment between my energy fields and the reality I want?

That little embarrassing truth?  Sometimes we are the reason things don’t manifest.

It turns out that while my feminine intuition was saying “Yes—create, birth, build, share,” something always stopped me. Hesitation, frustration, distraction, excuses… the familiar sabotage of an inner masculine system that needed to heal, expand and grow.

Slowly, I realized my inner masculine had spent years, decades - being stepped on, dismissed, or manipulated into serving another’s reality.

I had internalized this from childhood—and you might have too. My inner masculine had no ability to stand up for me, to affirm me, to protect me, to say no, or to create the safe container needed to bring my desires into form.

Forget creating my reality—I could barely create a safe container for myself, one that would protect me from pushy, dominating, or misaligned energies that only wanted their limited reality.

This was a path of healing I didn’t even know I was on. To create your own reality, your inner masculine must be strong enough to focus, to act, to protect, and to build—no matter who or what says “nay.”

That’s why when you're building something new, expanding, going towards a new dream for yourself, that one day it feels like a gentle, effortless climb, and the next, a rollercoaster of frustration, self-doubt, and resistance. Our masculine is dancing with our feminine one step at a time, resting, growing, expanding, learning, building and testing.

When I began to reconcile my inner masculine with my feminine power - loving and honouring both energies - mixing spiritual needs with material desire, something shifted: I was unlocking power within myself that was very surprising with very real outcomes. It wasn’t just creativity; it was fire, focus, and the capacity to direct energy into what I did want, rather than scattering it across the reality I didn’t. I was healing the separation between the spiritual and the physical.

This is the true essence of creator mode: bringing light to form, and form into its light; where the feminine’s flow, intuition, and divine knowing meet the masculine’s strength, structure, and capacity to act. Together, they bring form to the formless, energy into reality, and dreams into life. Our feminine nurtures life in our masculine, so our masculine can take the path of creating that life we want. And they move back and forth on the progressing path.

On a higher dimensional level, this is beautifully illustrated in the cosmic archetypes held within the sixth dimension: The Arcturian masculine provides steadfast and structure, strategy, and forward building, while the Pleiadian feminine offers innovative vision, playfulness, and rhythm. Together, they birth creation itself—divine energy made manifest.

For me, the journey into this alignment wasn’t just about inner work—it was about working with the physical world. It was about healing the split between earth and matter, being shaped by the world, and shaping the world through me, through the elements, through divine laws. Through The Art of Spell Casting, I learned how to direct energy, intention, and the spoken word into the physical, with fire, water, earth, and air in service of my desires and the reality I know I am here to build, embody and create from. I discovered how to shape reality not only in spirit but also in matter. Spell casting helped me balance, focus, and trust the process, reconnecting me with the beauty of the world and the power within me to shape it.

The path to creator power isn’t about speed, perfection, or having all the answers, or even a right way. Sometimes, it’s about honouring the struggle, embracing hesitation, and asking: Which part of me isn’t aligned with the reality I want to experience? Other times, it’s about growth: Which part of me is asking or needing me to grow here? There is magic, liberation and power in seeing the experiences that shaped me, as necessary preparation for creating something bigger, bolder, and more authentically aligned.

When your masculine and feminine are harmonized, your divine creator mode activates. Old patterns, fears, and doubts no longer dictate the possibilities before you. You step fully into the power of shaping your life, your reality, and the world around you with presence, clarity, and devotion.

Sometimes, manifestations, old dreams and goals, don’t appear because they weren’t meant to—they were training grounds, lessons to prepare you for the life you truly desire, the ultimate manifestation for your soul, and the absolute joy it will bring you!

May your Vision be clear, your Faith unshakeable, your Focus Anchored and your Energy powerfully aligned and Directed.

Happy creating beautiful souls!
Erin

P.S. If you’re ready to stop waiting, start creating, and step fully into this energy of creator mode so you can begin shaping and crafting the reality you want to experience on a whole other level, I’d love to guide you in The Art of Spell Casting. In this course, I channel and teach you how to work with the divine laws of manifestation, the elements, focusing your energy, and consciously shaping your reality -helping you reconnect with the physical world, unlock your inner power, and tap into the creative force of your magick merged with physical world!  Discover the true power of your magick here.